Happy New Year

So what do you do when you lose your boyfriend and best friend all in one swoop??? You get angry, have several meltdowns, go on a mini vacation and wake up a few days later realizing you're single, sexy and free, chop off a good chunk off your hair, and return to your rock star/punk rock phase (minus the drugs and alcohol) of being the sassy, quirky bitch that everyone knows and loves. That's right ladies and gents, I'm back!!!

My Friend JL

So as a member of the stacks, I met this dude one day. We exchanged pleasantries through BB. A few months later, he's still around and I have to admit he's a pretty cool guy. He was there for me during my recent crisis...lending an ear and words of wisdom....and I'm there for him during "singing lady" and sometimes when he's bored at work. Lol. He comes from a Honda family and he's very family oriented. He lives close by so hopefully we'll get to meet one day. So here's to my friend JL!!!

Things I miss about being in a relationship:

1. A nice, firm hand to scrub my back
2. hmm.....cricket......cricket.

Lol. Just kidding, there are a lot of things I miss about being with him in particular, too many to list, but there are some that I don't. I'm still trying to put together the missing pieces of the puzzle. I know now that he'll never tell me what truly happened, how things got this far and in a way, its better for some things to be left unsaid. I haven't had any meltdowns since the last post, so I think its safe to say that things are getting better. We even talk more and its not as hard as it was a couple of months ago. He's starting to voice his regret a little more, especially since he found out about the trip....jealous!!!....but we both know things have to stay this way for a while and maybe forever. Forever was what I was afraid of in the beginning and I had a hard time letting go, but it has to be this way. Besides, I need to sort out my feelings about my muse. This is something I have to address and settle with myself.

No woman, no cry!!!

It has been an extremely trying week. The realization that you have to start anew and by yourself. The mini discussion and decision about the account. Seeing my dog for less than 2 minutes after 3 months. Dealing with office politics and the sharks vying for my office. Dealing with lawyers and legal documents. Deadlines. Decisions. Desolation. The tears, fears, anxiety, anger and to top it all off, its that time of the year. At the time when I feel the worst in both my personal and professional life, I have to complete a self evaluation. I've somehow managed to make it this far through the week. To keep myself laughing and smiling, even though on the inside I was anything but....and today thank God for Katie. As "Katie did Dallas" (short story: her full name sounds like a stripper name)....as she did her little dance at the end of the day just to make me laugh, I realized that the pains in my back are gone, along with the kink in my neck. I realized that I was actually laughing and smiling, not just pretending. It has been a trying journey but it is time to forgive and venture onto a different path. It has been a trying week, but as the weekend approaches, I plan to leave all that behind me and be grateful for those that have kept me smiling.

Good friends we have, oh, good friends we've lost
Along the way, yeah!
In this great future, you can't forget your past;
So dry your tears, I seh, yeah!

"No Woman No Cry" --- Bob Marley

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"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter won't mind." --- Dr. Seuss

WTHIWWTP???

So we  drove past the house on Good Luck today....the house with the probably the highest electric bill in the country (unless they own the company which would explain a lot of things). The owner(s) literally have the whole house decorated for every single holiday. The driveway, the lawn, the roof, the windows....last Christmas they ran out of space and used the neighbors house to help anchor some of the roof decorations!!! Yes that's how bad it is. Even when its not a holiday, the lights are still up and they're always on. I can understand not wanting to take all those lights down, but do you need to have them on??? I wonder how far up you'd have to go to not be able to see it.

Anyway we drove up today and guess what.....yep you got it!!! They have halloween decorations up already. I guess the time between labor day and halloween is just too long....yes they had it decorated for labor day. I'm going to try to take a picture tomorrow. Its on the way to the hairdresser...oops...I meant the hairstylist. I need batteries for my cam. A cell phone cam won't do it justice at all. I just thought of something...I've never seen anyone at that house. I mean for all the decorating and crap that they do you'd think you'd see someone outside rearranging or fixing something. But no not once in....how long has it been...3 years almost....not a single soul....and the front door's always open during the day. Its kinda like the ghost house in my neighborhood...I'll save that one for another post

Counting Down

7 more to go. I'm trying to clean off my desk and tie up all the loose ends by Friday, so next week I'll just be doing my regular daily work. Stress free before I take my exit. I need to go shopping this weekend.....need a few more tops, slacks, and shoes. I definately need a jacket since the weather's changing. That'll have to do until I get more first check. Can't wait!!!

New Everything

Well almost. New look for the blog....finally. New job...finally. Next on the agenda is a car, school, and house. Starting on the first of October. I'm so excited. Tomorrow I'm turning in my resignation letter. Oh I can't wait. September 28 will be my last done. The girls are taking out to dinner. It'll be sad to leave them but I've been waiting for this day for so long. Its time to leave NHP. Even though they're trying to turn things around and make changes, its still not a place for someone my age. Anyways that's all the rambling for now. I'm going back to doing my monkey dance!!! Toodles!!!